This week's been crazy, everyone at work is stressed and tired out.
Its worse for me because I have been taking cab from work to school for dance.
Think i spent at least 30 bucks a day for taking a taxi. =(
Cant remember steps for nuts.. and its 2 weeks to performance!! =(
sighs... i need a miracle..


Our lyrical item for zirca...






and I found videos of our past performance!!! wheee~~ and its always easy to spot me.
the tiny girl in the crowd...


My very first time learning hip hop and my virgin performance in 2008




SIM open house 2009





Eve's open class before recital...






and my memory is failing me.... I am always forgetting steps.



left her thoughts ♥ 9:20:00 PM

Rushing from work to dance practice is tiring.
School's stressful. Next week's common test week and my class is lagging behind!!
I was so pissed marking the homework which I have given to them over the CNY holidays.
And all i get was rubbish work.

Am quite disheartened by their attitude.
Here I am working my butt off, and the children are giving me the I-DONT-CARE attitude.
It just irritates the hell out of me.

And my mood dampened when I realized that I was lagging behind for the dance items..
Tired and moody from work, I zoned out a couple of times while dancing.


I think I'm stressed.

Need to take a breather..



left her thoughts ♥ 11:39:00 PM

Was looking through my blog.. and i realised,people who dont know me on a personal basis would think that i'm a play girl...

-_-' zzz



I have had boyfriends... but...
I have neither cheated on my boyfriend nor left them for someone else.
I was a faithful girl and did whatever i could in the relationship..
I guess it wasnt meant to be..we parted ways and I moved on.


So yep... just to clear things up.


Thank you



left her thoughts ♥ 9:39:00 PM

Been busy as usual.
TGIH !!! THANK GOD ITS HOLIDAY!!!

1) Been pretty pissed with NUS emerge. Its screwed up.
We're supposed to be dancing for them. NOT choreographing the dance for them.
Total waste of my time.


2)City Alive Flash Mob..
I am happy that baby is dancing for me.. so touched.


Details :
City Alive(the biggest dance party of the year)
20 February 2010, 10.15pm to 4am.
@Pit Building



Here's the video of the rehearsal for the flash mob!

1st Rehearsal




2nd Rehearsal(the one baby came with me)






Love him!



left her thoughts ♥ 1:16:00 AM

I've gotta new BABY!!!
His name is Muffy!
and i simply adore him! =)

Met baby in the afternoon after dance and we went to Vivo City.
Came across this cute lil guniea pig.. love it to bits!! =)
Decided to buy it.

And i spent almost 300 bucks on it.

I am gonna shower it with TLC. Just like my own son.



left her thoughts ♥ 1:26:00 AM

SIM Dreamwerkz is gonna reach GREATER HEIGHTS....
Our 1st ever BIG dance project for NUS Emerge.
Please do support us!

My schedule will be packed with dance and work and dance and work and dance and work.
And of course, I'm gonna set aside some time for my lil' boy. =)
This is going to take my mind off stuff for awhile...
I will dance my sorrows away...
I will do my best and give my best performance ever.


I am proud to call myself a dancer.






left her thoughts ♥ 11:13:00 PM

Things have changed drastically since the death of my father.
Putting up a strong front is what i have been trying to do.
I feel like my life is a masquerade.
Hiding behind this mask of happiness,
but deep down, i am lost in my sorrows.

Maintaining this facade of strength is difficult.
All i wanna do is to break down and cry.

I want my daddy back. I need him, i really do.
I miss talking to him. I miss him waking me up in the morning.
I miss taking care of him. I miss having him leaning on me.
I miss the long talks. I miss his words of encouragement.

No one really knows how i really feel.

Its been slightly more then a month. I still cant let go.
I've told my friends that i can lose my boyfriends.
But i dont ever wanna lose my dad.
It hurts so much. This is literally the most painful separation ever.
I feel empty.
No one knows how much i have cried that night while sitting beside his body,
crying my eyes out.
Trying to stop time. Praying silently. Wishing he was still alive and talking to me.
He felt so cold... He wasnt responding to me and he never will....

I feel so alone.

I need him. I need him to guide me through this journey. I want him to see me growing up. I want him to see me shine in my work.
I want him to see me getting married, this is his only wish for me.
Dad wanted to live on because he wanted to see me walk down the aisle with the man who will care for me and love me for the rest of my life.
I want him to give me his blessing.
I want my daddy back...

I feel like a little spoilt child throwing tantrums. Crying and wailing when she doesnt get the things that she wants.
I feel like a lost child.

I really feel like this...I feel like breaking down from time to time.

Coming home to an empty house.
It doesnt help that I'm greeted by a picture of him everyday.
Sometimes, I smell the scent of his medication and I wonder if he's near.

Daddy,
I hope you're fine. I know you're safe.
I believe God is taking good care of you.
I just want you to know that I miss you.
I always have and always will.
But Dad, Mum misses you the most.
Every time she sees your picture, she touches your face and cries silently.
I know she's hurting more than me.
Please protect her Dad,
I am fine...and i love you dad.. so much



left her thoughts ♥ 8:07:00 PM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!